Sorry it’s been so long since my last blog. To be quite honest, I’ve been too heartbroken to write.
As many of you probably know, my son, Lucas, passed away on Nov. 17 at St. Louis Children’s Hospital. He fought a tough battle against a rare type of leukemia. He was two years old.
During his fight, our emotions were on a roller coaster ride. Any good news sent our spirits soaring, while bad news did just the opposite. Since his passing, my wife and I have felt one strong, consistent emotion – longing. I don’t know how to describe how it feels to miss someone this much.
Mornings are especially cruel. I often dream of life before his illness. When I wake up, it takes a few seconds for reality to set in.
In addition, we’re extremely bored. I’m sure those who send kids off to college know how we feel. Just a few short days ago, it was tough to get a moment’s peace. Now, we have all the time in the world to do whatever we want. I’d give anything to be busy caring for him again.
Lastly, I want to thank those readers who have sent along encouraging words during this battle. Those who say farming is getting too corporate need to sit down and read the sympathetic cards, letters and messages we received. This industry has something few others have: a heart. Thank you for sharing your love and compassion. Your words of concern mean more than you will ever know.
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